Saturday, November 19, 2011

Friday, November 18, 2011

KAVA JAVA

i shouldn't have caffeine. i did really well for a week but then last night i had a late night and thought i should have some coffee to make sure i was productive today.

good news: i was productive! ran my first mr job on aws. boom!

bad news: i also talked a lot. and i tend to be disillusioned by the interoffice party chat into thinking i am in a safe place and people won't judge me. this led to me talking (a lot) about feeders and gainers and meat glue. i am now known to have a fat fetish fetish. apparently a lot of people have never heard of it.

um... and to prepare myself to last the night i have had to continually ingest caffeine which is making me all shaky and headache-y. at least i should be random and entertaining tonight :)

(don't worry mom and dad, i AM fine!)

turns out

i know nothing about dating. i swear. it must be genetic. maybe they have courses on how to know when someone is hitting on you. turns out, i only *get it* when they kiss me or some other such nonsense. kristine has been helping me figure it out. unequivocally the answer is YES, it is a date. maybe i just like to think that no one likes me that way i don't ruin friendships. because that has been most of my experience with dating. lord knows about half the physics department in oregon won't talk to me because i dumped them in one way or another. not my fault! i like to try people on and give them a chance even when i don't think it will work. oh. maybe that's my problem.

in other news, hc the phrase 'use it or lose it' doesn't apply to memory?